Monday, September 27, 2010

Handprint Turkey - Reverse Applique

Handprint Turkey - Reverse Applique

What you'll need:
 Sweatshirt, onesie or t-shirt
Felt (optional, can use fabric)
Hand-needle & sewing machine
Sweatshirt I'm using, handprint, felt & fabric.
Step 1:
Trace your childs hand & cut it out

Step 2:
I forgot to take a picture for this, it's my first tutorial after all!
But for this step it's kind of up to you. I decided to use a fabric pen to
trace around my hand so I had an outline on the front. But you could also
just pin down the paper handprint & sew around that!
 Step 3:
Cut out a piece of fabric larger than your handprint

 Step 3:
Turn your shirt inside out & pin your fabric right side down.
So then your looking at both the wrong side of your shirt &
the wrong side of your fabric.

Then turn your shirt right side out.
Step 4:
Sew along your traced line or your pinned down handprint

Step 5:
Cut out the material inside your stitches. Make sure to leave
a little bit of space so you aren't cutting out your stitches.

Step 6:
Embellish your turkey with a wattle & button for the eye &
your all done!

 Thanks for checking out this tutorial, as I said it is my first! I had so much fun trying it out myself
& can't wait to make more! If you end up making one yourself please some back
& share a link to your image, I'd love to see!

Saturday, September 18, 2010

Testing 1, 2, 3 ...

Just testing my mobile blogging!
xo [L&L's] Mama

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Four years earlier ... and now.

Four years earlier.

It was a beautiful hot day,

Full of sunshine, not a cloud in the sky.

Our hearts, so full, they overflowed with happiness,

Watching as my little man had a blast riding rides,

Or playing peek-a-boo from behind a tree.

And perfect photo ops that are so sweet to look back on,

It felt like we had forever left together.

And this time,

A piece of our heart was missing.

But still thankful for the blessing I have now.

It's just that it didn't feel quite right,
A void that was only felt between Andy & I.

The gloominess of the day, was fitting for such a missing presence.

Thursday, September 9, 2010

They aren't all sad, promise.

I realized recently my posts were sounding a little sad. But I promise they aren't and won't always be like that!

Focusing on some happier times ... Andy has two days off, works on Friday, then his vacation starts! Yes! I'm so looking forward to having my hubby home for 9 straight days & I don't have to send him off to work. Sadly, it's his last week of vacation until Jan 2011 but I'm sure the time will fly by as it usually does. Between now & then we'll have Layne's birthday party, Halloween, Layne's birthday, Landan's angelversary, Thanksgiving, Christmas & New Years. Thinking ahead much? 

Since I didn't post about Landan's birthday I thought it would be a good time to do that! Thankfully the day was WONDERFUL! I really thought the You Tube comment from the night before was going to break me. I couldn't fall asleep & was up until the wee hours of the morning (which isn't that unusual, I was just up later than usual) but it didn't. I had two of my amazing friends in from New York to spend over a week with us & it was great to have the company during Landan's birthday.

I'll let the pictures tell the rest of the story ...

Getting balloons ready for the cemetery
My friends Tina & Jess
My friend Christina writing a message to Landan
So much love for a special little boy
My sister Lexie & Layne
My sister Lakin, Layne & my mom (Landan's Nana)
Here they come bebe!
Catch them!
Flying off to Heaven
Tina, Jess & myself
Jess & I
Jess & I
Tina & I
Tina & I being silly
Wish lantern flying off to Landan
Andy & I releasing a lantern
Tina & Lexie releasing a lantern
Lantern flying off to Heaven
Beautiful gift sent by my friend Kerin for Landan's birthday
And this, this is my favorite picture of the day.

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Dear Landan

Written to Landan on his 7th birthday. August 17th 2010

Dear Landan,
     Today you turn 7yrs old in Heaven! Happy Birthday Bebe! I remember the day you were born as if it were yesterday. Although you put me through 47hrs of labor & lots of stiching up afterwards it was all worth it. It's hard to believe I have a 7yr old. It would be easier to fathom if you were still here with us. You were such a breathe of fresh air in our lives & our hearts are not complete without you were. Their will always be a missing piece until we're all reunited with you again.

     To say life without you is hard would be an understatement. Even though this is the fourth time we will celebrate your birthday without you, it still hard to accept your missing presence. I wonder all the time when I will finally accept 100% that you aren't coming back & I will never see you again until I get to Heaven. I feel sorry for myself sometimes and can't believe that at the age of 21 I had to learn what it was like to lose one of the most important things in my life. Not many people I know have their own burial plots by the time they are 21. But it's just something I accept because I have no other choice.

     It still upsets me to think about the day you died. Of course you know I don't cry everyday because mama tries to be strong & doesn't want to put my burden on anyone else. But you are one of the first things I think of in the morning & one of the last things I think of at night. I don't think, in the past three years that I've missed a night talking to you before I go to bed. You are always in my thoughts & so many times I see you in something your little brother does, a face he makes or how his voice sounds just like yours when he says "Hi!" I'd give anything to see you two together & watch, first hand, you being a big brother. I keep asking you to visit me in a dream & play with your little brother so I can know what it's like. I know their are always going to be a life full of "firsts" that I have to go through that will be bittersweet. Like whenever mama & "E" have another baby & see Layne being a big brother like we should be watching you do with him. Makes me sad to think of that. I know you would have been an amazing brother to Layne & would have been overjoyed to be a big brother to him. I know you do the best job you can from Heaven.

     I think my biggest worry is that I will never see you again, Bebe. Before you died I never doubted that Heaven exsisted & I think the only reason I do know is because I miss you so much. I don't know that I could bear living with the fact that I wouldn't see you again. So I just hold on to that hope that I will.

     I try to think about how much I miss you. But how do you put that into words? I just can't properly describe the void your death has caused.

     It makes me sad to know all the people who will miss out on knowing one of the most amazing, creative, silly, loving & strongest person I've ever known in my entire life! You fought so hard to stay with us & through it all I'm so proud of you! I remember everything around your death very clearly. Just the adrenaline rush running through my body when I woke up to a nightmare. I was so naive & never thought you'd leave us in a million years. You dying wasn't even a thought my mind would entertain. Even after you were gone. I am though, eternily greatful for the wonderful family, friends & support system I had at the lowest point in my life. I could never properly thank everyone for the support.

     To sum up everything I want to say in a few simple words - I miss you more than words & love you beyond measure.

     Happy 7th Birthday Bebe! You will always be my baby.

Love, Mama <3

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

This is what I have to deal with ...

This was also posted on my Facebook page. But thought I would share it here as well. People are cruel!

by Lacey Harris-Willoby on Monday, August 16, 2010 at 5:57am

Perfect example of what I have to deal with because I chose to memorialize my child & share him with the world? And to be honest, this is also why I'm kinda nervous to check my emails from You Tube letting me know that I have a new comment on one of my videos.

I guess I just don't understand how someone can say things like this?

"Way to use a shitty song to remember your ugly fucking child. I did a complimentary whack off session to the thoughts of your fat fucking ass crying over his weak little body dying so fast. How many things were you unable to say to him? How many trips and activities did you have planned to do with him to all go up in a cloud of smoke, because of this little shit eating faggot dying so fast? Way to be a terrible mother you fat slutbag. Eat shit and die like your stupid faggot child."

Here is the video the comment was left on ...

Saturday, September 4, 2010


So I finally got around to changing my blog up. Still not 100% happy with everything but it will do for now. I want to make my header rotating so I'm working on that & need to add my little signature back into my posts. Going to put up some new posts shorty. A few from around Landan's birthday, etc

Hope everyone has a good Labor Day weekend!


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